Everything we do in our lives has meaning, it has purpose, and it always has a way of taking us in the one direction we thought never to go. The direction at times to lead our hearts and souls to that one person. That one soul we were born to love, the one we would die for, the one in our lives that somehow knows us, to the very depths of our being. The one that knows you so well they can sense something is wrong, sense a need, or a want. They can sense your very soul. They can bring your soul to life. They can cause you to feel things you never in your life felt you would ever feel. Things you were certain were dead and gone. |
You were that one person in my life. You gave my heart, my soul, my very being life. You gave to me the one thing in this world I had been missing. Love Truth Honesty Above all that, you gave to me the chance to begin to find myself. You allowed me to begin this path in my life to try to come out of " Hiding ". The one thing in this world that has protected me, the one thing I always knew I could count on, trust in, and beleive in, was the ability to hide from the one thing I so hated. " Life" |
You showed me with your kindness, your gentleness, your understanding, and your oh so very patient heart, that it was possible to open again to trust antoher. To see the good in life. You showed me how to love. You allowed me to be loved. You gave my life the one thing it so desperately needed.... To allow my soul to open to another and see all the devine love inside. To be able to give what I so hid from the world, my love, my heart, my true self, my soul and all things that soul cherished. |
As time went by I knew what was happening. I tried to fight this, I tried to forget. So many times when you would be gone for periods, I would promise "me", this was the last time. Yet, everytime I saw your name, I would gasp for air, my heart would pound, my soul would cry a river of tears. I waited for that box to come up with that message " Hi Angel". Sometimes it was like an eternity. To my heart it was. Somehow along the way, I saw more clearly. I had been hurt so deeply, I couldn't go back. I began this slow spiral into something I couldn't stop. I was " Hiding" from you. The life line to my very soul. I knew then. Sometimes we can be hurt so deeply into our being that we can't go back. We can't forgive. We must move forward, forever to be without that life line any longer. We must learn to stand on our own. We must heal. This is now where I find myself. I am on a path to heal, to put me back together. Forgive me for not being there as I promised I would forever be, forgive me for taking my soul and " hiding" it from you. Forgive me my love for saying Good-Bye. |
Sometimes we can be hurt so deeply into our being that we can't go back. We can't forgive. We must move forward, forever to be without that life line any longer. We must learn to stand on our own. We must heal. This is now where I find myself. I am on a path to heal, to put me back together. Forgive me for not being there as I promised I would forever be, forgive me for taking my soul and " hiding" it from you. Forgive me my love for saying Good-Bye. |
