How do you know where you belong ?


This is one of life's most asked questions.
I have ask myself this a million times.  Finally giving into the realization that I would never truly belong, no matter where I was.

Within my life I had become a people pleaser.  Nothing in life mattered to me, taking care of my children, hiding all the bruises, putting a smile on my face and saying " Thing's are fine " "Hiding" that was my life.  That's the only way I knew how to truly be free.       " To Hide " 
Then one day I found my way onto the internet and into a room where I soon realized these were wonderful people. As time went on I could " hide ", I could openly love these people and allow them into my dark world without ever letting them in.

Then came that terribly scary day I met you. Your sweet words, the way you made me laugh. We soon became friends. There were times we would talk for what in my mind was only moments when in reality we had talked for several hours.
As all this was happening there was something happening to me, turning in my heart, in my soul. No matter what was going on as soon as you would enter that room my heart pounded, my hands began to sweat, my heart soared. In my eyes all I could think was he is here..This is where I belong.

How was I to know then that what was happening would forever change my life, forever change me, forever give to me the one thing in life I had never known. A place
in my life that I could say " I belong Here "
" I belong with someone "
I remember so clearly the day I truly allowed me to know  and accept what I was feeling. It was a dark rainy day, a Monday, I knew you would be on line in a short while, I had to be brave, I couldn't tell you what I was feeling. I had to keep this hidden. So many times I nearly blurted out how I felt. Then suddenly I found myself telling you I had fallen in love with you. I was so scared. Then that box popped up with those words. How could this be happening. I froze. How could 3 little words from someone like you meant for me create such fear and confusion. "I love you " was all you said. What a day it soon became. Were you just saying it? No, my heart told me you meant them .
I didn't think I could ever be so happy. You were where I belong. I had found it.